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Meryl Yeo, Yawen
(Meryl has been my maiden nickname since 2003. Yeo Yawen is my full name.
I’m the only one in my family whose Full Chinese name 杨 or 楊 (Yeo) 雅雯 (Yawen) sounds like 3 Yes-es, looks like it’s nurturing or raining high literature/high culture, or like elegant colourful cloud patterns. I’m also the only one in the family whose full name alone looks and sounds like three friendly/funny/jolly Yes’s in some European languages — ‘Yeohh’, ‘Yahhh’, ‘Yawww’ (Yor/ YYw), so it also looks unusually joyful. Conversely, it also looks like the cloud could be taking a wee piss on culture from outside the picture as the last word (in my name) and all you can see is the rain and the culture (see youtube,com/trueorigin). The other 3 reasons are a bit PG.) I look nothing like the comedian Jimmy whose initials spell Joy, he’s a dead ringer for my younger sister. At present I have some unusual sunburn/bronzing patterns across parts of my face that will be there for at least 6-12 months, which can’t be covered by makeup so I look like I’m wearing a costume party mask of a certain furry ballsy Japanese restaurant host/greeter statue when I show up.)
The other two sound like either no or exceptional literature/culture, or endless rain over a forest.
*Authorities in Switzerland registered my name without a say, as:
Yawen Schindhelm née Yeo
I and my company are strictly Standalones.
Ignostic Freethinker. No religion. Staunch critic of martyrdom.
In my entire lifetime, I have never had an addiction and/or major illness.
Not even once.
My 2016 Zinemaking workshop held at the Substation/.SingLitStation can be seen on their official page, where there is a photo of me. I have the photo in full colour. I’m unafraid to show up, no matter what. :) It’s just going to be on my terms. If anyone’s under the illusion that I have no other options, they’re wrong.
I was in Switzerland for Marriage. It was thought to possibly be one of the suitable countries for a long incubation period for Art & Culture with no undue pressure for fast turnovers (literature/culture), but it was unable to afford me the freedom to do a proper introduction — like how I introduced myself to Melbourne.
I was always the top performer in my family in youth. When some realized I wasn’t just making them proud but would also surpass them by far, they plotted to kill me off, used copied credentials and redistribute my assets & achievements/works among themselves. It was arranged so my team would be obstructed from finding me. Two outsiders intercepted the conversation so that we would always have to go through one to access my paternal mother’s line, and the second one inserted himself into the conversation between a top Official and I before we ever had a chance to meet. The first one had lied that they knew my family, telling everyone that my younger sister was the only sister in the family which prolonged the search for me, and managed to do this by apparently showing people she had my contact details (I’d likely only briefly met her and she got my contact by pretending to offer something that could be good for me while I was on my way). The second one is the son of a former public official who had been looking to save his career after he was given no opportunities after publicly opining that a certain Head of State had no future. I saw what both of them look like during my investigations. Before this began, I informed a friend that I’d been told by a key person who witnessed my birth that my name was switched before any of us were born. I then gave them the coordinates for my sister, in case they tried to do the aforementioned killing. I also told them about the Yes-es and the colourful clouds. Since I was 19 years old, there was a religious nutter I’ve had to intermittently deal with who kept muttering something about “0 belongs to us, not you”. Another person asked for my forgiveness out of the blue, told me my family had been cursed and I would have no way to gain momentum — he never told me what he did that plagued him with guilt and made him lose sleep at night.
All my creations are my own originals unless specified. I choose and purchase my own material, choose every turn of phrase, word, stroke, space, technique, timing and tone right down to every meticulous detail. I strive for Independence of Thought and Application of my own Self-realized Individualism in all that I do, which shows in my purchasing decisions across everything I have in life barring gifts from friends and family. Each has a unique purchase history with a memory tied to it, which I can recount any time I like even if alone and out of sight — even if others take them as their own for whatever reason. I’ve saved up for whatever I want, reshuffling life as necessary, and just gone for it. Most hesitate because they listen to the old fearmongering from the usual quarters, but I’m freed of such things since I developed myself independently since young. I’ve noticed that people who’ve wanted some form of control would sometimes suggest I’m a problem. Fortunately, common sense usually won out. Whatever’s been happening and happening now is nothing new per se, just different places, people, techniques and how far they’ll go to push their personal agenda(s) — and it will continue to be nothing new to me when I overcome these as always and get back on track to my own blueprint. Just another day in life, back to enjoying all the big and little things in life, all that’s in between and even further out, and working on publishing my own original self-made content and workings. Too bad if others default to easy answers, but these are my works and as the original creator and ideator/developer of them I can explain them like no one else can, not even if others’ presentation looks technically better and carried out with more expensive machines. An inventor always explains it differently from someone who just reproduces or carries out what others have discovered or dictated to them. In this regard, I’m an inventor and it should be apparent from the way I continue and stay integrated in myself despite and in spite of any obstacles.
It was easy for many especially in Singapore to wrongly assume I was the beneficiary of free money or a lottery system/charity by those who never saw my progress, never really knew me, and never understood that I was headhunted and tested, especially when I started receiving attention for my works then presented with the series of opportunities to go over to Switzerland with seemingly amazing conditions. This was partly due to the fact that being a beneficiary of a lottery system in Singapore’s early days had been the case of many Singaporeans who came into wealth. In my case however, they would be wrong in several ways. Firstly, I’m from a family that had multi-generational wealth before my parents lost it and I was suddenly unable to accept my invitation to a prestigious Uni program (despite being only 1 of 2 international students who made the cut that year), nevertheless it means my family already were highly successful from at least my Great Grandfather’s time and it was wealth that was healthily made from gainful use of agricultural lands and community building — yes we were leaders, but we rolled up our sleeves and built it ourselves and together. We were never just armchair critics. We can actually make money from working with the land and its people in a way that makes a community alive and vibrant — as opposed to primarily getting paid when people are miserable or have a problem. There is a difference. People in Australia recognized that difference and that’s why I became visible there and was helped and supported to do so. People were excited because they are healthy.
I was never just a beneficiary of free money or a lottery system. I'm only being paid out my own funds owed to me. The amounts concerned are Royalties for all of my original works combined which appeared in the places that they have and are still being used indefinitely till this day for a 10 year run and counting. Many of these works were highly awarded and successful, with my material used from end to end without edits or substitutions (including director notes, etc), arranged in a way that references me but stops me from claiming direct credit as their original author — this is how royalties work today. These are Fortune 500 companies. I have worked with such companies during my earlier career as well, except this time I’m an author and artist. Of course I can stand next to my works and talk about them, but I would need a way to launch them and this time I know better — I’ll do it alone.
It's therefore unfair that people look at the fact that the royalties need to be paid as inheritance and say I just got "lucky", and especially unfair that they are now allowed to use this as an excuse to take my own earnings away from me through criminal means amounting to white collar crimes. I was specially chosen for these works which are the reason behind why I have these royalties. After I became visible in Australia, I was headhunted, forced to return, and subjected to an extensive and rigorous testing process over years to ascertain that I was exactly who they had been looking for to fill a highly specific role, with such narrow requirements for rare and special skillsets/criterias that they had been unable to find any suitable candidates for several decades despite their considerable global reach and penetration.
Yes I’ve hired a Swiss lawyer finally this year, after having spent upwards of 5 figures (*Swiss Francs* not rupiah or pre-bigbang mesos thanks) of my own savings in the last year alone not to mention other potential earnings during a 3-4 years full-time commitment to my own case running a one-woman international relay obstacle course to extract the precise administrative evidence leveraging all the specialized skillsets acquired across my entire career (even if I had missed one industry I would’ve been unable to pull this off because many people before me were never able to obtain their royalties, even if I had talked to one less person about this, I would’ve been unable to be pointed to the direction I needed to be going). My very own real-life Around the World in 80 days but 3 years and deadly.
I'd love to be able to show and explain these works, but due to copyright complexities perhaps an expert who does such valuations would be better able to explain how and why I and my works meet the assessment criterias of expert valuators.
As Lee Kuan Yew said on TV in 1986, Singapore wouldn’t be here if we hadn’t intervened on very personal matters. People like myself, will always find a way. And if anyone says going abroad means you abandoned your country, tell them that there’s one other place that believes that — North Korea. We’re Singapore. Be Singaporean.
In order to even understand why my works commanded such high value, you would need to bring in a highly specialized cultural expert and assessor who has the ability and knowledge to forensically examine the works in question and discern that I am the Author, also be able to provide an appraisal of how much that would command on the market. Tthe Japanese Nobel scientist Mr. Toshihide Maskawa who won the Nohel Prize for his work on CP-Violations also never handed in homework and he said so in his 2008 Nobel speech! Their continued disbelief is unfounded.
After I became visible in Australia, I was aggressively headhunted to my detriment and specially selected to be invited over to Switzerland in a lengthy process spanning at least 3 years in a way that made sure that I could do nothing else but submit myself to these tests with no other greater opportunity. Meaning the testers manipulated the conditions in Australia to bring me back and then cleared the space for this to happen and hold me in place during the testing, and especially once they had me in Switzerland (see administration and what happened to my company in Switzerland — nothing was an accident, so much so that experts and spectators have been taking the risk to tell me and warn me because they apparently feel very strongly about all of this and think what happened, what was done to me, and now how it’s been set up to cut me off from help when people assume that I received free money is *wrong*). They had gained interest after hearing of my demonstration of ability provided whilst a practitioner in Australia. These parties that were interested in me, headhunted me, and subjected me to rigorous and extremely specific set of tests, an examination proicess which I am able to describe in detail and explain extensively (what these tests were, which item was testing what, and how difficult it would’ve been for them to orchestrate the test conditions). This all amounted to quite a substantial investment made on the part of the assessors and headhunters, with the aim of assessing if I was the specific person with the extremely specific skillsets and special abilities for a role that they had been unable to find someone to fill. They had been unabel to find anyone with my extremely specific profile and skillset not found in the general populations across the world . Before they found me, they had been searching for at least 1 decade without being able to find anybody suitable despite being a group that has an all-encompassing reach into every part of the globe. The reason was because I had made it my business to conceal my presence and abilities from a very young age because I knew exactly what talents I have and had. That’s why I was mistaken as deaf/mute, that’s why I never reported a single incident that happened throughout my life that I knew would put me on the radar, and chos every specifically to reval myself only in Australia. And after that, these people sabotaged my stay in Australia to reel me in back to Singapore for the specific purpose of testing me on the tiny island city of Singapore where my every isngle movement could be watched and graded.
They assessed that I was exactly the person they were looking for.
I think the world can work together. What we can ill afford, are bad actors setting it up because they hate to see us get along and work together. They’re deathly afraid we’ll get together, compare notes and figure things out for ourselves, that their functions will be meaningless. They create obstacles so that when I talk about what they have organized to be done to me, trying to get help and keep myself safe by making people aware of the situation, others could mistakenly think I’m saying there’s no way to work together and nothing good that can come of it — which is untrue. There’s people trying to stop any of us from ever meeting and working with each other independently. They often pretend to offer real opportunities, insert themselves, and make us think they are us. Then they destroy the potential of a connection in what would’ve otherwise been an ideal and mutually beneficial union and relationship between cultures and people. These covert operations hurt us most. But none of that will stop any of us — they wish. Instead of running into them abroad as I seem to have these last years, I’ll make my own way so that my stand and beliefs/works will be impossible for them to twist and/or lie about. Then we’ll all be good for connection, if it should so please us, once we meet and understand one another.
We all have problems. Our countries have problems. You and I, we’re all different. It’s good that way. I still see you, I still believe we’re stronger in our differences. We have our quarrels, our own life challenges — so what. As long as we are dedicated to being individuals we have a chance that everything is (still) possible given time and effort. Possible each as ourselves, impossible with these groups.
Some unusual events happened in Switzerland, including the fields on my forms apparently being changed by others backend (religion? Catholic, instead of Freethinker — I triple checked the forms with Embassy consular staff, it was all correct), administration. I wasn’t able to walk about it much except try and report the technicalities/problem here but I see there’s a limit to text and video. These things can only be discussed the old way, in person. Something odd also happened with the wedding rings, the fittings and sizings I was given, how they turned out being sized for the third finger. I was given a strange reason when asked to wear my wedding ring on a different finger on my wedding day, which almost caused me to call it all off until I was given triple assurances this was part of a plan to clapback to naysayers/detractors and get us on track. Something happened during the photoshoots, changes. Emails were strange, with differences in quantity from one email to another but seemed easy to request corrections and give benefit of doubt when the other cited stress as a reason, since this had never happened before. My 2016 Art of Zinemaking workshop points to the wrong person’s instagram account, of a totally different racial background and geography and native spoken language (I speak Cambridge English).
I’m pretty hardy, saavy as ever and clued up. I get it.
I’ve hired a civil rights lawyer as of this year and am making progress, one step at a time.
Regardless of where you’re at in life in any given point, the only constant is that one same person you have to live with and face in your alone moments which is your Self.
In future, everything will be traceable right down to the very last author, every human being, every strand. Everything else falls away in time, revealing all. There is only one objective truth. The most valuable “things” will be of our unique and unadulterated human expression and spirit, from authentically lived human experience and real memories that nothing external can corrupt. All the the people who stand most to gain from destroying humanity, who throw people under the bus, wish hard that they can get away with it, write any human being off as AI — well they’d better be prepared to fail hard too, ’cause they’ve grossly misassessed the future and what it means to be in it. They are all eyes that fail to see, they are all ears everywhere but are never able hear the music of the ever-moving, ever-shaking world that exists and continues despite all, in spite of all. And for what it’s worth, here I come with pen and brush as sword. :>
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