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Singaporean Literary Writer & Fine Artist

Meryl
(maiden nickname)

(Mdm.) Yeo, Yawen
(full maiden name in order of Surname, First name. Yes, when I was born I was already a ‘Madam’, as in Madam President rather than of escorts)

Registered in Switzerland as: Ms. Yawen Schindhelm nata Yeo

~Under construction~

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I was born in the 80’s at Gleneagles Hospital in Singapore to a cultured, prominent Singaporean family with a tradition of excellence and history of prestigious awards.

My uncredited works have appeared in full on the albums, films and video games of several prominent publishers/artistes in US and worldwide. A few of them are Oscar-winning. I achieved this unusually in a career markedly without favours, which took longer and often meant less money. However it gave me and my works the kind of priceless confidence that only comes with having achieving it all above-board and refusing to sell out for any amount or person.

My work was deemed as high value when I was brought to Switzerland for marriage after being wooed for 2.5 years through the highest diplomatic channels. I was told ther could be family and a home, I’d be protected there, that there was human rights and alleged emphasis on morals, which would welcome a platform that would support my wholesome ambitions and career since my works were officially assessed to have the kind of cultural value that require a long turnover period. I had made it very clear for years that I refuse to expected to give away my work for free or forced to donate my position to someone who never earned it, stopping me from taking my position and using it. I never stood a chance against organized crime, with people pretending it was all an accident when they were after my funding and contracts. Someone in the Swiss Authority registered me as two different people when I moved. Everytime I was brought in, I was given no brief at all and denied all information required to function at any competent executive level. This was used to falsely present me as a low-level worker or inferior under someone. When I persisted with negotiation and gave all the correct answers and lines of questioning fulfilling my functions, and refused to be forced into any kind of non-consensual donation, I was routinely suppressed using violence, damage threats and isolation/ torture techniques. Their techniques failed to fully work as they were clearly designed to work on male individuals or females of high position but of only one kind of social background — either rough/working class or posh but not both, and it’s only effective on those who are spiritually as fledglings. I come from an old natural line of female Founders who never benefited from quotas, assistance or political movements like feminism.

I am number One. Sometimes beside, but never below anyone. Never number 2.

At present, my parentage is being confused to prevent me from claiming my rights and funds. My biological mother is still alive, born in Singapore when we were still Temasek.

I am still seeking legal recourse at present and have been travelling solo to resolve this issue.

But most of all, regardless how it goes logistically, none of this has succeeded in changing my story at all. What happened proves that there are some things in life that no one can take from you and it pays and pays out to you when you choose to work on that. You’ll always have the creative connection if you’re connected to source point because you did the real inner work, so that always belongs to you and you can always produce from where you left off. Whereas others who avoided that inner work run dry, their victories are hollow, they have something but can never be that something. And their behaviours, although bewildering at first, later evokes something more akin to pity. It’s difficult to sustain any anger when you realize how tragically little they have as compared to you, no matter what they try and accumulate. They go through the motions and drop all the trend keywords but they’re never really healthy.

Sometimes when people lack imagination of you, you have to have the better imagination of yourself. Sometimes it’s other people who will change, or conversely misunderstand your responses out of their own myopic mindsets, but this is beyond your control and you need to focus on what your gut instinct tells you, focus on what you can control, and do what you need to do to get moving. Sometimes, if they’re jealous of your fun and freedom and want to see you suffer, or become so disturbed that they would mount a huge effort to try and stop you, or orchestrate an artificial experience to prevent you from enjoying life or being seen, you just have to cut them loose as soon as possible, once you find out what they’re doing. And maybe it takes 5 years like what just happened, simply because somebody refused to take no for an answer, and needs to act like nothing can exist unless it’s all about them. Sometimes people can be upset just because you said no to them or something that they did that was totally not-okay. They may have seen your light and thought that you could live for them. Or hoped that you could come to mean something for them, even if it were to your detriment.

Some of us step in and bring this great light, it seems to follow us wherever we go. But if someone sees that and wants to stop you from ever leaving, or they try to project their feelings of regret onto you when you try to leave — for example, try to push you into a trope of a mourning wife because that’s what they want, they want you to be regretting them. Because you made them feel regret when you were ready to leave. Or they pretend there’s something wrong with you just because you said no, they’ll tell homophobes you’re gay if you’re straight, they’ll say you’re straight if you’re gay, they’ll say you’re a predator if you’re evasive, and then if none of that works they’ll register you as the opposite of what you are and use that to say you’re someone other than yourself every time you show up. They’ll even throw money into it, or use their name registration gimmicks to take funding that people sent in support of you, and they’ll let you know they would rather pay to see you miserable than successful. But the only thing wrong with you was that you’d said no to somebody who thought they were above treating others as human beings from whom you need to obtain proper consent. The problem was that you dared to go ‘you have to get my consent’. In my case, just because I said no to being refused consent, I just had to get back to my life as soon as possible and I could enjoy again and actually get back on my career with the progress I’d made before the whole fiasco. Why let anyone else force me to tell their story for them when I’ve made it clear I’ve got my own blueprint and am sticking to it because, it works? It was working swell and everyone was happy without others’ interference. Just because anyone wants me to forget myself and what I have ownership over, hardly means they’ll get their way. In their game, everyone loses.

These people are victims. They feel like victims. They act like victims. They are most happy when they can turn others into victims. Leaders are the better instructors of ourselves. We break these cycles. We reach win-win solutions and create win-win situations where collaboration is key and everyone is genuinely helped to find their purpose and place in life — as opposed to having to let others tell them what they can or cannot be, what they can do or cannot do. We never have to force these “programs” on others. And when people see that, they voluntarily follow. Sometimes such ‘victimizers’ just disbelieve that these things are entirely up to the individual’s character and the choices that person makes. Even if life and certain people try to rob you of a choice, or try to inflict some form of suffering to force you into cutting off your own connection to the world out of pain, say no. Stay open, in defiance. Refuse to bow down. Refuse to be pigeonholed. Move forward when you can, after a recovery period. Maybe I could say that I’ve lost 5 years, only because that’s how long it took for some morons to take no for an answer. Some people just do this on purpose, and there’s no helping it. There’s no way you can be responsible for other people’s feelings. No way you can be responsible for the way they feel when you show up and have done absolutely nothing to them except be the best version of yourself in that moment. They can turn around and say, ‘I hate this person’, because you put a proverbial mirror to their face. And sometimes it’s bewildering, these people can be so outwardly successful. So why do they have so much trouble being happy with themselves, why don’t they have enough to be happy for you? You’ve taken nothing from them. You’ve just stepped in and simply existed. You exist. As proof, to the contrary of whatever they’ve perhaps been trying to tell themselves. You have no idea. You’ve just stepped in. None of them know you. They’re strangers, right?

And that’s the risk you take moving and expanding into the world outwardly. Sometimes you’ll come to mean something for others over which you have no control. And maybe, some jerks with nothing in common who came before you already spoiled it for you, they poisoned the grounds even before you had your first thought about entering that space. Do you shrink back in? Of course not. You keep going out into the world, you keep expanding your presence fearlessly, right? No one is happy 100% of the time, but if anyone wants you to be more unhappy than is normal, and actually takes it upon themselves to seriously interfere for such an end, maybe they have a mental illness. It’s no one’s job to ‘cure’ them or be forced to donate their time or energy. They have to take responsibility for it. Everyone is free to make new agreements. But no one has a right to take away another person’s free will.

Everything that you’ve been dealt with — It is what you make of it. But if any other person wants to make you responsible for their problems, maybe they try to come up with all kinds of things to try and pin it on you, bury you alive, in the end you have to emerge again.

You, without doing anything else, will become the living contrast against anything wrong anyone has ever said or done against you. You will be the contrast simply by the fact of your very existence. So there need be no direct rebuttal whatsoever. That’s the beauty of it.

These people only feel powerful when they feel that they’ve snuffed you out. But if you remain undefeated, then in this case once it becomes obvious that you were never defeated, whatever power trip that they had from before you emerge is only temporary. All you have to do is overcome, and stand tall again. It’s just a matter of time. All their goals are temporary since they only feel artificially powerful, it was never because they were strong in themselves but because they had to suck it away from others. That’s the difference. They never learned how to cultivate their own connection in their life. They had a chance to share it with you, to learn to reopen and tap into their own connection too. You know, it’s their choice. They chose. And you can choose as well. You can choose yourself.

The good ol’ law of attraction yields a blade that requires quite a bit more than precision. It cuts more than both ways. Might look like there’s a shield, even a cheat code going on; is actually pure manual use of weapon. I’m just one person. It’s “supposed to be” impossible. Whatever positives they accumulated, will all get sucked back this way. They’ll never see it coming, even if they read all this. That’s what happens when you only know how to go by flatworld textbooks. Be prepared. :>

Will post a video soon to talk about things, so no one can pretend to be confused about my appearance, identity or role, coz at least it will be clear that someone else other than me caused the confusion. :)